Happiness

When everything is right with us I'm happy. I'm happy with the world. Everything's ok. I can bear any burden and face any problem cos I know that I've got you. And you mean the world to me and in you I can find my happiness.

But if i am sad. It's because something between us has made me so. If I miss you and you don't miss me back it makes me sad. If I put up a status for you and you don't even like it; that makes me sad.  Because it's for you. Because you are that important to me. I am not perfect.  Far far from it. But my world is a gloomy depressing place if my happiness in you is gone.

It's a scary feeling. To care for someone that much.  To feel that much. To have your happiness depend on them that much. It's a scary feeling to not know if they even feel the same way....

I'm sorry. I am who I am. What ever I feel I feel with an intensity I cannot lessen. If only, for a moment you could understand... If only you could...

It is how it is

The problem with me is that I will forgive. I will forgive you even when you forget me. I will forgive you even when you hurt me. And i will still forgive you even if you leave.

Why?

Simply because it is who I am and for what I feel. Simply because the heart is a traitor to the mind and she knows no other way.

It is not easy being me. It is so hard to pretend to be normal when everything was so broken before.

So remember... I will forgive you. But it costs me so much more than you'll know. So just...  Don't forget me. Don't change.