Afraid

My heart aches
It feels like love.
I can't deal
Missing you this much.
I'm so afraid
Will it end up like before?
Will I have loved you too much?
Will you just walk out of that door?
I can't bear it, I don't want to face it.
In denial I'll not acknowledge
But until I see your face again,
Until I see your smile,
Until I hear your voice call me your pumpkin... 
I'll be afraid;
Each day that passes is a day lost without you.