Sometimes even though you may miss someone like crazy, you realise that you just got to keep moving. You just have to let them go. Especially if you know that they will never change. They will never put you first in their busy complicated life.
That's what I'm feeling right now. That feeling where, yes, I miss you so damn much. But no. I can't just forget the dozens of times you've said 'no' to me. Be it even the littlest request. See, how upset you got when I said 'no' to going out in the night. I didn't even say 'no'. I said 'Maybe'. Just imagine how I feel each time I ask you something: a small favor, a lift to somewhere, to go out somewhere... and you seem to say 'no i'm sorry I can't'... just imagine how crappy that makes me feel.
I ask you because you're my 1st choice. If I can't ask you, then who should I ask? It's not like I have a full time boyfriend right?
So yeah... like an old re-run.
Hello Loneliness, my dear old friend... you're never really far away are you... You're the constant in my life.
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