Just another day for you.

You will never change. Forget it. No more chances. I can't do this. Take you back you say... And this is how you behave? Good riddance to bad rubbish! You will always take me for granted. Now let's see how we play this game... I'm laughing at you. Let's see who becomes the fool baby.

Tears..

Just another stupid mistake

Sometimes I wish I could just repeatedly slap myself over and over and over again!

Don't I ever fucking learn? Apparently not! All in the name of Love! He calls and I answer... What kind of relationship is that? What the hell is wrong with me dammit! I'm over him.. ok.. so maybe not over him.. but definitely there's no sort of relationship for us. So why the hell do I let him into my life at all?

Why do I hurt myself like this.... I know this is not good for me. So why do I do it? Because he needs me? He may need me but who takes the brunt of the pain? Me! Me dammit!

Why can't my stupid silly foolish heart just be strong and stay away from him? Why can't she do this...

How I hurt right now. How I hurt because I spent last night in his arms. How pathetically am I waiting for him to text me. To message me saying something sweet. Of course he won't do this. Of course he won't bother. And why should he? It's not like we're in a relationship right.

I'm soooo damn bloody stupid!!!!

And I'm in so much pain. How many times will I keep doing this to myself? How much more can I bear this?

Why can't I be cold to him? Why can't I just be someone who doesn't give a damn about if he's hurting or tired or alone...? I shouldn't care, yet I do.

And this is the price I pay for Love.